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The miserable seconds are turning into minutes, minutes into hours. It’s another night of me soaking my pillow with salty tears.

Recently, I’ve been thinking that college might not be for me. I’m wasting my time. So I have decided to go to beauty school. A decision that I’m 100% sure that would make my family extremely unhappy. My parents have no choice but to say yes. But i’ll be going back to school within two semesters. I promised I would finish… eventually.

But in comparison to rest of my amazingly flawless family, I am the black sheep. I have always believed that playing the “comparison game” was extremely childish and everyone gets hurt. But I’ve never really fit in with the rest of them. I’m a little different. And I can’t really explain how… We do have similar personalities… But I just can’t feel a connection with any of them. And it’s not just my family, it is with everybody. But if I cannot form any relationships within my own blood family, how do I ever expect to form relationships with strangers?

Am I missing something within myself that allows me to create these attachments to others?

I’m going on terrible tangents and I am not making any damn sense.

In my 21 years of life, I never once heard that someone was proud of me. People take that for granted, they really do. To be the source of someone else’s pride would be a great pleasure of mine…

4.22.12.

day 5: what did you do today?

3.10.12.

“ You’re really beautiful :] ”

Anonymous

thank you anonymous :)

3.07.12.

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3.03.12.

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2.17.12.

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2.07.12. john mayer,my stupid mouth,social casuality,

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day 4: what are your dreams and ambitions?

2.07.12.

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ways to make me fall in love (revised)

1. write cute little love notes/letters to me.
2. kiss me in front of your friends.
3. buy me a bag of gummi bears and pick out all the pineapple ones… because they are my favorite.
4. let me bury my head in your chest when you hug me.
5. bring me soup when i am feeling under-the-weather.
6. whenever i get angry with you, make me laugh.
7. play with my hair.
8. hug me around the waist, even if that means you have to bend down.
9. kiss me on my neck/shoulders/ears/cheek/nose/forehead/etc.
10. cook a meal for me.
11. take me to go do something i’ve never done before.
12. look at the night sky with me and count the stars.
13. offer some random information about yourself. chances are, i’ll remember it forever.
14. take me to a ballgame.
15. monday night football + foot massage = best way to end a monday night.
16. sing to me
17. shake my father’s hand

2.06.12.